its nights like this where i miss you. i feel like ive been trying to make myself believe i dont need you and i dont care about you anymore, but i do. i want to talk to you even if its just as friend. its been 2 weeks exactly and its been so hard for me. i act like im okay but i dont think i am anymore. i love you and i always will but i dont think i am ready to move on, i cant.

this break up wasnt exactly a regular break up. we never said yes we are breaking up. i go single on facebook bc u dont text me all day and now im the reason were over? your acting like im to blame but im not. i said things i didnt mean, BIG FUCKING DEAL you now decide to just come right back at me? say i love you but your not in love anymore? right when we get off the phone your last words were ‘i love you and i really do care about you remember that.’like how am i suppsoed to feel? now you wont even talk to me? i need closure, i do love you and i still want to be with you but now i just dont no what to do. everyones telling me talk to him talk to him, but i have a feeling talking to him will make me more upset hearing he just wants us to never be back together. almost a year and this is what happens all because of one fight?

i just cant stop crying.